If You’re Attracted to Them Immediately, Run - Here’s Why Your ‘Type’ Is Actually Your Trauma
The people who give you butterflies are actually giving you warning signals. Your body just learned to confuse danger with desire.
You meet someone and feel it instantly.
The spark. The connection. The chemistry. That feeling in your chest like you’ve known them forever. Like this is different. Like this could be it.
Everyone tells you to trust that feeling. “When you know, you know.” “Follow your heart.” “You’ll feel it when it’s right.”
So you do. You follow the spark. You chase the feeling. You dive in.
And six months later, you’re wondering how you ended up here again. With someone who’s unavailable, manipulative, critical, or just fundamentally wrong for you in the exact same ways as the last person.
Different face. Same pattern. Same ending.
And you think: “Why do I keep choosing the wrong people?”
You’re not choosing wrong people. You’re choosing familiar people. And your body learned a long time ago that familiar means love.
Even when familiar actually means danger.
“You’re not attracted to good people. You’re attracted to people who feel like home. Even when home was where you got hurt.”
The Spark Is Not What You Think It Is
That instant attraction everyone tells you to trust? That electricity? Those butterflies?
That’s not chemistry. That’s recognition.
Your nervous system recognizing a pattern it knows. A dynamic it’s experienced before. A person who triggers the same responses your childhood did.
You think you’re feeling excitement. You’re actually feeling activation.
Your body is going: “I know this person. I know this feeling. I know what to do here.”
Not because it’s good. Because it’s familiar.
And your brain interprets familiar as safe, even when familiar is the opposite of safe.
Why Trauma Becomes Your Type
Here’s what happens:
You grow up in a household where love is conditional. You have to perform, achieve, manage moods, walk on eggshells, earn approval.
You learn that love requires effort. That connection means anxiety. That closeness comes with threat.
Your nervous system wires around this. It learns: This is what love feels like. This tension. This vigilance. This constant monitoring of someone else’s emotional state to stay safe.
Then you grow up. You start dating.
And you meet someone who’s emotionally available, consistent, predictable, and kind.
Your nervous system goes: “This is boring. This doesn’t feel like anything. Where’s the challenge? Where’s the tension? Where’s the love?”
Because to your body, love without anxiety doesn’t register as love. It registers as nothing.
“Your nervous system doesn’t want what’s good for you. It wants what’s familiar. Even when familiar almost killed you.”
Then you meet someone emotionally unavailable. Hot and cold. Inconsistent. You have to work to get their attention. You have to earn their affection. You’re constantly wondering where you stand.
Your nervous system goes: “THERE IT IS. That’s love. That feeling. I know this.”
The butterflies aren’t excitement about a good thing. They’re your body recognizing a familiar threat and preparing you to manage it.
You’re attracted to them because they feel like home. And home, for you, was a place where love required performing, managing, earning, and never quite being enough.
The People Who Feel “Right” Are Often Wrong
The most dangerous relationships feel right immediately.
You meet them and something clicks. You feel understood. Seen. Like you’ve known them forever. Like you can be yourself.
Everyone around you says “I’ve never seen you this happy.” “You two are perfect together.” “This is it.”
And you believe it. Because it feels true. Because the spark is undeniable.
What you don’t realize: You’re not feeling connection. You’re feeling activation. Your trauma recognizing their trauma and going “we match.”
The relationships that feel electric from day one are usually two nervous systems recognizing complementary dysfunction.
You’re drawn to their unavailability because it lets you play the role you learned in childhood: the one who pursues, manages, earns.
They’re drawn to your pursuit because it lets them play their role: the one who withdraws, withholds, controls through absence.
You think you’re building something. You’re actually reenacting something.
“The person who feels like ‘the one’ is often just the one who triggers your oldest wounds in the most familiar way.”
Why Healthy Feels Like Nothing
This is the cruelest part.
When you meet someone who’s actually good for you - emotionally available, consistent, honest, kind - you feel nothing.
No spark. No butterflies. No intensity. Just... calm.
And calm, to a nervous system wired for chaos, feels like the absence of love.
So you tell yourself: “They’re great, but I’m just not feeling it.” “There’s no chemistry.” “They’re perfect on paper but something’s missing.”
What’s missing is the anxiety. The uncertainty. The need to perform.
What’s missing is the familiar threat your body learned to associate with love.
The healthy person doesn’t make your heart race. Because your heart races for danger, not safety. Your body learned to equate adrenaline with attraction.
A healthy relationship feels boring at first. Not because it is boring. Because your nervous system is waiting for the other shoe to drop and it’s not dropping.
You’re waiting for the tension, the games, the push-pull. And when it doesn’t come, you interpret the absence of dysfunction as the absence of connection.
The Pattern You’re Repeating
Look at your relationship history.
Same person, different face? Same dynamic, different details?
You’re not unlucky. You’re not bad at choosing. You’re not cursed.
You’re repeating a pattern your body learned was love.
Maybe your parent was critical and you keep dating people who find fault in everything you do.
Maybe your parent was emotionally unavailable and you keep choosing people who can’t show up.
Maybe your parent was controlling and you keep attracting people who need to manage every aspect of your life.
Maybe your parent was unpredictable and you keep ending up with people whose moods dictate your day.
Different person. Same wound. Same attempt to finally get it right this time.
You think if you can just make THIS unavailable person choose you, it’ll heal the wound of the parent who didn’t. You think if you can just earn THIS critical person’s approval, it’ll prove you were worthy all along.
It won’t. Because you’re trying to get from a romantic partner what you needed from a parent. And that’s not a relationship. That’s a repair attempt.
“You’re not choosing partners. You’re choosing auditions for a role you’ve been rehearsing since childhood.”
What Your Body Is Actually Telling You
Those butterflies? That’s your nervous system activating.
That instant connection? That’s pattern recognition.
That feeling of “finally, someone who gets me”? That’s trauma recognizing trauma.
That sense of “I have to have them”? That’s your body trying to resolve an old wound through a new person.
Your attraction isn’t broken. It’s just aimed at the wrong target.
You’re attracted to what your nervous system learned to survive, not what would actually help you thrive.
And until you rewire that association, you’ll keep feeling sparks for people who are wrong for you and nothing for people who are right.
Why This Is So Hard to Change
Because your body doesn’t care about your happiness. It cares about survival.
And to your body, survival means familiar. Even when familiar is dangerous.
Choosing someone healthy requires overriding your nervous system’s most fundamental programming. It requires staying with someone who feels like nothing long enough to discover that nothing is actually peace, not absence.
It requires sitting in the discomfort of calm. Of consistency. Of someone who doesn’t make you work for their affection.
It requires redefining what love feels like. From “anxious, uncertain, performing” to “steady, safe, chosen.”
That’s not a mindset shift. That’s nervous system rewiring. And it takes time, repetition, and willingness to feel wrong while you learn what right actually feels like.
The Three Types of Attraction
Type 1: Trauma Attraction (The Spark)
Instant. Electric. Consuming. You feel it immediately. You’re obsessed. You can’t stop thinking about them. The chemistry is undeniable.
This is your nervous system recognizing a familiar pattern. It feels like love. It’s actually activation.
Type 2: Comfort Attraction (The Friendship)
Easy. Calm. Pleasant. You enjoy their company. You feel safe. But there’s no passion. No intensity. No spark.
This is what healthy often feels like before your nervous system adjusts. It feels like nothing because nothing is wrong. And your body learned that love requires something being wrong.
Type 3: Grown Attraction (The Build)
Slow. Gradual. Earned. You don’t feel it at first. But over time, with consistency and safety, something builds. Not butterflies. Something deeper.
This is what actual healthy attachment feels like. It doesn’t start with a spark. It starts with trust. And trust, for someone with trauma, takes time.
Most people chase Type 1 their whole lives. Wonder why it always ends badly. Never give Type 3 enough time to develop because they mistake the absence of chaos for the absence of connection.
What To Do With This Information
Step 1: Notice Your Pattern
Who are you attracted to? What do they have in common? Not surface traits - core dynamics.
Are they emotionally unavailable? Critical? Inconsistent? Need to be rescued? Create drama?
That’s your type. Now ask: Who from my childhood does this remind me of?
Step 2: Identify the Wound
What role did you play growing up? The achiever? The caretaker? The invisible one? The problem?
You’re likely choosing partners who let you play that same role. Because the role is familiar. Because you’re hoping this time the outcome will be different.
Step 3: Catch Yourself in the Act
Next time you feel that instant spark, that immediate attraction, that sense of “this is it” - pause.
Don’t trust it. Investigate it.
What specifically am I responding to? What about this person feels familiar? What wound is getting activated?
The spark isn’t reliable data. It’s a trauma response.
Step 4: Stay Longer With Boring
When you meet someone who’s healthy and you feel nothing - don’t leave yet.
Give it time. Not months of forcing something that’s not there. But enough time to let your nervous system realize: Nothing bad is happening. Nothing bad is going to happen. Calm is safe, not dangerous.
Let trust build. Let safety develop. Let your body learn that love doesn’t have to hurt to be real.
“Healthy love doesn’t feel like a spark. It feels like coming home after being at war. Not exciting every moment. Just safe.”
Step 5: Do The Repair Work
Therapy. EMDR. Somatic work. Something that rewires the nervous system, not just talks about it.
You can’t think your way out of trauma bonding. You can’t logic your way into healthy attraction. Your body has to learn a new pattern. And that requires body-based work.
The Hard Truth
You’re going to have to choose someone you’re not initially attracted to.
Not someone you’re repelled by. Not someone you feel nothing for after a year.
But someone who doesn’t give you that immediate spark. Someone who feels stable, kind, consistent, and maybe a little boring at first.
You’re going to have to trust that the absence of butterflies doesn’t mean the absence of love. It might just mean the absence of threat.
And you’re going to have to stay long enough to find out if what builds is deeper than what sparks.
That requires faith. In yourself. In the process. In the possibility that your nervous system’s definition of love might be wrong.
What This Means For You Right Now
If you’re single: Stop trusting the spark. Start investigating it.
If you’re in a relationship that sparked immediately: Look at the pattern. Are you performing? Managing? Earning? Walking on eggshells? That’s not love. That’s reenactment.
If you’re with someone healthy who felt like nothing at first: Stay. Give it time. Let your nervous system catch up to what your brain knows is good.
If you keep ending up with the same type: Stop blaming yourself for bad choices. Start recognizing you’re not choosing. Your trauma is choosing. And it’s choosing what it knows, not what’s good for you.
The Thing That Changes Everything
Your type isn’t your destiny.
You’re attracted to what feels familiar. But familiar can be unlearned.
You can rewire your nervous system to recognize safety as desirable instead of boring. To feel calm as connection instead of nothing. To build attraction through trust instead of chaos.
It’s not easy. It’s not fast. And it requires you to override every instinct your body has about what love should feel like.
But it’s possible.
The person who gives you butterflies isn’t your soulmate. They’re your mirror. Reflecting back the wound you haven’t healed.
The person who feels like nothing at first might actually be the person who lets you heal it.
You just have to stay long enough to find out.
“The right person won’t feel like a spark. They’ll feel like the absence of war. And your body will need time to learn that peace is what love actually feels like.”
Your type is your trauma until you heal your trauma.
Then your type becomes your choice.
And that changes everything.
-Cody Taymore
Kill The Silence
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Cody! This is my favorite article on Substack ever! I was talking to someone very important to me the other day about this exact thing. You articulated it with outstanding evidence skillfully and convincingly. Thank you so much! 😊
As much as it hurts to admit, this is all 1000% accurate. Much of what you write hits close to home, but reading this was like looking into a mirror (and I'm certain I speak for many who read this).