Beautifully stated, Cody. That's a great insight about the hardest part of resting being tolerating the anxiety over the reaction of other people. In my case, yes, other people's reaction is anxiety-provoking, for sure. I've got an additional layer of anxiety, dread, and shame I deal with when I step back from the strive response, though. It's the cascade of thoughts, emotions, and automatic behaviors of justification, apology, and compulsively trying to logic my way in to constructing some air-tight philosophical framework in which I can convince myself that my stopping striving doesn't put me in the worst danger imaginable (eternal conscious torment in hell, post-mortem) for choosing myself and my wellbeing over the please-Me-and-prove-your-worth-to-Me-at-all-costs-style sensibilities of the ultimate narcissist abuser: Christianity's all-powerful, mind-reading deity.
Working to unwind the tangle in our minds past the trauma and experiences that nearly broke us takes time, but is well worth it, for our minds and soul.
Beautifully stated, Cody. That's a great insight about the hardest part of resting being tolerating the anxiety over the reaction of other people. In my case, yes, other people's reaction is anxiety-provoking, for sure. I've got an additional layer of anxiety, dread, and shame I deal with when I step back from the strive response, though. It's the cascade of thoughts, emotions, and automatic behaviors of justification, apology, and compulsively trying to logic my way in to constructing some air-tight philosophical framework in which I can convince myself that my stopping striving doesn't put me in the worst danger imaginable (eternal conscious torment in hell, post-mortem) for choosing myself and my wellbeing over the please-Me-and-prove-your-worth-to-Me-at-all-costs-style sensibilities of the ultimate narcissist abuser: Christianity's all-powerful, mind-reading deity.
Working to unwind the tangle in our minds past the trauma and experiences that nearly broke us takes time, but is well worth it, for our minds and soul.
Excellent Cody! Thank you for pouring this forth onto the page for us all. 💚