The One Who Picked Me Up When I Couldn't Stand

For Rob

Rob,

I hope you’ve been doing well since we last spoke. I really do. I want you to know how much I’ve missed you. I haven’t been doing great to be honest man. You won’t believe the shit that happened to me. I wish I could put it into words to let you know how big of a gap there is now that you’re gone. I can’t call you anymore.

How the fuck did that happen? You weren’t supposed to die. We were supposed to get old together laughing and making memories together. I never met someone like you. I never felt loved or thought about the way you made me feel. I never felt good enough. You made me feel like I really fucking mattered. You saw me when nobody else saw me.

You came and picked me up when I was at my absolute lowest. You believed in me. You fucking breathed new fucking life into me after everything I'd been through.

I will forever be grateful for our time together. The man that you helped me become. I hope I made you proud of me.

You taught me about friendship, sales, life, mental health, addiction, relationships, and everything in between.

You taught me “Pay attention to what people do. Fuck what they say.”

You were the best salesperson I’ve ever witnessed.

I can’t believe you’re gone. I got your tattoos on me. 3 of them. I am glad I got them before you left. I’m glad you knew how important you were to me. I hope you did. I have that goat tatted on me because I always said you were the GOAT.

I’m trying to be strong. I’m trying to recover. I feel so alone. I miss you man. I can’t fucking stand up I feel so fucking broken down. You always had a way to make me feel okay.

You taught me how to stand on my own two feet. I didn’t want to do it without you. I have to believe you’re still with me.

I guess I couldn’t hold it together today. I couldn’t hold onto these thoughts. I thought you’d be here forever. I hope you know how much I love you.

I swear to God I won’t let you down.

Love
Cody

“In Rob We Trust”